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My precious firstborn son,
It's Fathers Day and I feel so all alone. Even though you have a son and gave me a grandson,
the maternal grandparents deny me the right to be a part of his life. I know how sad this must make you as you watch
all of this going on. I dont think you can see these things, the sad parts, cause the Bible says there will be no
tears in heaven and I know how much this would make you cry seeing us denied your son. We were so close, he stayed with me 3-4
days a week until they just decided to rip him from our hearts, no explanation, no words, nothing, just quit answering the phone,
almost like we never existed. I hear Melanie, Colton's Mom is very sick and I am so sorry about this. But you would think this
would make them see the hurtful thing they have done taking Colton away? They wrote a letter in the paper asking for finacial help
to get her a van and they said in the letter, this could be your daughter or son? Dont they see I did lose my son and they ripped the
only thing I have left of you on earth from my heart? Colton saw Nanny one day and told her I hadnt called him in 2 years. Nan told him, oh yes, Colt,
you mama called every day for 2 years but they wouldnt answer the phone or hung up if they heard her voice. I just
dont understand or comprehend this kind of cruelty and am so thankful I dont. I tried to get him everything he mentioned wanting though my income was
very budgeted at the time. I made 3 round trips from Nevada to go to court for him so he would get your SS. But, almost as
soon as they received the money, 5 yrs, they took him away. I will never forget the night of your final visitation
at the funeral home, when Melanie hugged me and told me, she would never take Colton away from us or allow her parents to do this. She was always do afraid
of them remember? She told us things that she had never shared with them because she was afraid of their reaction.
He is quite an athelete, I hear and of course, the grandfather plays the part of his dad at all of the events. Its like you told
him months before you were killed. hes wants Colton to be his son but he will never be and every time he looks at Colt, he sees you
because everyone says he looks more and more like us as he grows up. He was diagnosed with a heart problem awhile back and the GF asked if
I would like to talk to him and I said of course? Yet, this was just another lie as the call never came. Though he looks so much like you
he doesnt have your kind heart and loving ways. You never hurt anyone in your life intentionally. I thank God that I raised
you and Shawn to be the loving young men you are because I know you would never inflict this hurt on anyone like they have us. How cruel this is. I just
dont understand how these people could be this way. They havent lost a child yet but 3 of their grandchildren have lost a parent as their son's children's Mom
was also killed. This should touch their heart but it just seems to make them colder? I keep remembering how the son's ex who was killed later also told me
that as soon as they got what they wanted from me, I wouldnt be allowed to see Colton as they didnt allow her to see her daughters and I just wouldnt believe this. I just didnt
understand this kind of cruelty. I dont have any of your clothes, wallet, etc. It broke my heart to give these things to Colton but I did over time as he kept asking for them.
I doubt if the grandparents kept any of these things although I wanted them so badly, Colton did also at the time.I lay awake every night and cry and ask God why?
Why was my son taken and then my grandson, the only thing I have left of you? How could He allow these people to do this? I know that He will ask them this one day
as He has heard my pleas every night.I pray daily that something makes these people see what they are doing and God will direct them to bring Colton back,if they
will allow God to lead them. There will be Father's Day flowers on your grave, my son, for I am taking them out today. You were one of the most loving Dads I ever knew.
I will forever remember Colton jumping into your arms and you grabbed him and twirled him around and kissed him and said Colton, no matter what anyone tells you, Daddy loves
you and always will with all of my heart. That memory plays over and over in my dreams and I always wake up crying. Son, if you can, would you ask God to please do whatever He can
to make these people understand the hurt and pain they are causing and let them see what is the right thing to do, to allow me MY Godgiven right to be a part of your son, my grandson's life?
Maybe they might listen to Him. Happy Father's Day, my precious son, Mom
You Never
You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If Love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In Life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home.
TY Linda & Angel Tina
TY Carol & Angel Michael
TY Angie & Angel Dustin
TY Angie & Angel Dustin
TY Anne & Angel Mitchel
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